So I so very much looking forward to Thursday night. This Thursday, after going to class, after going to the zoo with camp, I am meeting up with Torrie to go out. Since the next day is the 4th of July, I have Friday off, which means I can go out Thursday. Torrie is moving back up to Pcola, and we hardly ever "go out" together. We make beach dates though. But since I have no friends, I have no money or time, I hardly ever get to go out. So when I do get to go out, I appreciate it so much more. I am just so excited to go to a bar, be around people, be with a friend, and drink drink drink! And have fun of course. I hardly get to have fun anymore. I probably sound like a loser, but if you knew me, and knew my life, and the situation I have gotten myself into, you would understand. I look forward to good times this Thursday. I look forward to meeting new people too! I also look forward to drinking alcohol and dancing! I look forward to dressing up and looking pretty. These are things people do on a weekly basis, but for me, since I hardly do it, I look forward to it! :)
What have you been putting off all weekend?
Every weekend I put off doing homework. Then on Sunday I regret it. It's going to be a long weekend!
What's your favorite type of donut?
Submitted by tomatshonino.
I have TWO kinds.
One is the donut that has no hole, has chocolate frosting, and cream inside. I can never remember if they are called Boston Cream or Bavarian cream. One of those creams tastes amazing, the other is disgustin!
My other favorite donut is the kind WITH a hole, white frosting, and sprinkles!
I think there is one up there ^^^^^^ at the top of my blog amongst all the other delicious treats!
i always tell people that i don't have a sweet tooth, i have a sweet mouth because i LOVE sweets and treats!
So my older brother, Brian, 28 years old, came down to Florida, well Clearwater/St. Pete to visit. This was his first time in Florida. Here were the events of the week:
Monday:
Picked him up at airport around 5ish.
Got off wrong exit to Clearwater, so I took him across the Howard Franklin and The Sunshine Skyway
Ate at Firehouse
Watched sunset on Clearwater Beach
Walked around beach
drank at a bar
Tuesday:
Went down to St. Pete to go to Dali Museum
Mini tour of Downtown St. Pete
Dropped Brian off at beach at 3pm so I could go to class
(5 minutes later he walks into the Gulf with his cell phone in the pocket of his swim trunks causing there to be no communication between us for 7 hours, I was suppose to pick him up when I got out of class, but I couldn't get a hold of him. He ended up calling our Dad back home from a CVS. Dad told me, and I finally was able to get him)
Wednesday:
Eat at Tijuana Flats
Drive to mall to get Brian a new, very cool LG Rumor, cell phone
At Cold Stone Ice Cream in Safety Harbor on the bay
Watched the Cubs get beat :( by the Rays at Tropicana Field in St. Pete
Thursday:
Made plans to go Wii hunting, found one at first store we went to
Played Wii
Dropped Brian off at beach at 3pm so I could go to class
(this time all went well)
Drank at a bar
Friday:
Took Brian back to airport, almost missed flight because he didnt check the time until this morning.
it seems thats about all I do. Nothing seems to make me happy. I can't just settle with what I have. But then again, I have never had anything worth settling for. So here is the plan for now.
- attempt to get a teaching job for this school year
- if i don't, i still have that tutoring position
(i just need something that will give me at least a year of experience, and also get my references for future job choices)
- apply for the DoDEA or some kind of overseas teaching position
OR
- apply for some out of state teaching position.
I just want to be happy. I don't want to settle for just anything. I want to be happy with what I settle with. I shouldn't have to comprise or sacrifice one aspect of my life in order to happy in another.
What lesson did your father teach you that still helps you in life?
The only thing I have gotten out of having the dad that I do, is that I now the kind of Dad I DON'T want to father my children.
That is all I have to say about that.
So I was prepared. I was confident. I was determined. I was ready. I left in enough time. Well, I thought I did. I got lost.Information said that registration would be from 7-7:30. I registered in at 7:20. Not late, but one of the last. They gave us some information and then started letting people go to tables to sign up for interviews. They went by rows: first come, first serve. Therefore I was served last, and there were no interview spots left. You can't participate in interview day if they are no spots left to interview. So I came home. And now I begin to yet again try and figure out why is it, what crazy phenomena is preventing from me getting a teaching job? And where do I go from here? I followed the Secret. I imagined myself signing up for lots of interviews and going for interviews, and getting offered, and then accepting, and the having to go to the other room for processing. I imagined myself calling everyone today to tell them I would be moving, because it would be closer than living in Clearwater. Why, if I did all this visioning, did I not even get to sign up for an interview, let alone actually DO an interview. There would 155 schools there, and about 600 applicants there. I arrived too late. I learned my lesson. I also learned that even if you have directions, the street is most likely be hidden, without a sign and a stoplight. I left in plenty of time. Plenty of time to get lost and be late apparently. So now what? What do I do now? I am lost. And sad. And depressed that I just can't seem to do anything right.
Everything happens for reason. So what is the reason I do not have a teaching job. And what reason is preventing me from even getting interviews, and or even finding job vacancies? What is the reason, and what can I do to make it all better.
I have a midterm this evening and I can't even think about it, because I am so upset about what happened to me today. I took of a day from work. I could be making money. I could also be at the aquarium, for free! But I am now still jobless, without any prospects, and a midterm to study for. Could it get any worse? Two years of subbing, yes it could get worse.
I feel like I have failed myself yet again. I can't do anything right.
i will be 30 in 7.5 years. I have a list of things I must accomplish! Goals if you may....
I call this list "My By 30 Expectations", kinda in order, two seperate lists that have nothing to do with each other
Professional Goals
Get a teaching position*
Finish Master's*
Get Nationally Board Certified
Life Goals
pay off all student loans
get a little white dog...like a Maltese
Buy a car
Get married**
buy a house
have all (2-4) kids**
*Teaching position will probably happen by the end of this summer, and I should finish my Master's next August.
**Those are more like wishes. Some things in life you just have absolutely no control over. But I wish and hope to be able to get married and have all my kids by the time I am 30.
I will be 30 in the year 2016. Which like I said is 7.5 years away. Time is ticking!
What are some of the best(and worst) things about summer?
Submitted by L33tchica.
Well its always summer in Florida so here are some of the best and worst things about Florida
BEST
beaches, hot shirtless guys, palm trees, blue skies, almost perfect weather, lots of things to do, always interesting people that move, lots of water activities
WORST
hurricanes, cock roaches, tourists, old people, EXTREMELY hot days, drivers,
I could get into more, but I tried to keep it close to summer related things....
We used to be friends, though I am not sure why. We had a few similar interests, but now that I think back on our "friendship" it was based around competition. You had the better family, the social life, the money, the jobs, the clothes, the boys, the sex, the parties, the material things. You also had a lot of insecurities and probably felt that having all those other things would make you feel better and come out on top. I had (well more like still have) the goals, the motivation, the drive to do what I want, and EARN what I want. Once I moved, I realized that you are one of those spoiled, dependent people that think they are entitled to things. You say you want to do things in life, like you have goals, but you do absolutely nothing to achieve those goals. Saying and doing are two completely different things.
So today I found that you deleted me as a friend from myspace. It stung for a second, but really, we have nothing in common anymore anyways. I haven't called you just to talk to you since before I moved, like 3 years ago. We talked about that, you would never answer, or return my calls anyways, so why should I even bother to call you. You called me only on your way home from work while in the McDonald's drive thru, to catch up. And in my world, catching up with an old friend is not a 2-minute phone call in the drive-thru on the way home from work.
I knew our lives were going in different directions a few months ago when you called me and told me that you had goals and wanted to do something, but your friends were bringing you down. Come to find out a short while later, you are friends with a certain someone that I despised in HS, someone who ditched class to have sex with her BF and then got teachers to feel bad for her because her dad has cancer, when she hated her dad as much as I hate my dad. Yeah, you know who I am talking about. So you have goals, but your friends bring you down. I am sure she will be a great asset to helping you get what you want out of life.
I thought your boyfriend would calm you down and make you less immature. He has, but you are still too dependent and flakey and immature for my liking.
I know I have changed, I like to think I have changed for the better. I am growing up. You are not.
So farewell. It was fun. Enjoy life and I hope you get everything you want and deserve out of life.
