I do not like that no one can comment on my vox account unless they are a member. I have decided to switch to tumblr instead. Here is the link. From now on I will only be posting from the tumblr account.
while it may be horrible to think...I have to ask...
Would people care as much if Caylee wasn't cute and adorable? What if she was ugly and a horrible behaving child, would people show as much concern?
They found bones last week on Dec. 11. Today it came out that the bones are indeed hers. Poor thing. I want to attend the funeral or whatever kind of public memorial service they have for her.
My theory: Casey (mother) wanted to party, having a child got in the way. Chloroform seemed like the least painful way to kill her daughter.
:(
Rejection. I hate it. I put myself out there, and was rejected. Rejection sucks, but I guess we have to experience a few times until the universe aligns and everything falls into place. Rejection provides lessons and experiences for the next I guess. You win some, you lose some. Not everyone is going to like you, enjoy you, be interested in you, or care about you.
Just some reminds to keep me positive about being rejected. There are plenty of fish in the sea, good things come to those who wait. Everything happens for a reason. At least you put yourself out there!
so I have never been west of New Orleans. I come from flat Illinois and flat Florida. The school district I teach for gave us the entire week off for Thanksgiving. Now that I have a job, I have some money to finally be able to travel places that I have never been able to see before, such as Los Angeles, California! I have a friend, Jon, that I met on JTV last year that lives out here. I decided that this week off would be perfect for traveling out to LA to see the city and visit Jon! My adventures in LA begin on Monday, November 24.
Monday, November 24
Arrive at LAX at 9:30AM. Jon picks me up. We eat breakfast at IHOP. Jon is in the process of moving out of an apt in Santa Monica and into a loft in Los Angeles. He takes me to his new loft so that I can sleep. I did not get much sleep the night before and I did not get much sleep while I was on the plane. I was exhausted! The loft is located in a neighborhood called The Brewery. The Brewery is collection of industrial warehouses that were turned into "starving artisit" lofts. It's definitely an interesting way to live in LA! And it's definitely interesting to travel and experience life this way, rather than going to a hotel and being a real tourist! So I slept on a big couch/chair thing for some hours. Then my other JTV friend from LA, Jake, came and picked me up. He was hoping to show me Hollywood and where he works and his apt in Burbank. But the LA traffic at 5pm was CRAZY! And for some reason he didn't get sleep the night before either, so he was kinda not feeling well. We ended up going to a mall on Hollywood and Highland. I saw some Walk of Fame stars and I saw the handprints and stuff outside the Chinese Theater. I also saw the stairs that lead to the Kodiac Theater. I was hoping to see the Hollywood sign on the hill all lit up, but it wasn't lit up. They have a cross lit up instead right next to it. Why the cross and not Hollywood is beyond me. We were hungry so we ate this awesome restaurant in the mall. It is called UWINK. Each table has a double sided computer touch screen to order your food and play games. Ordering your food is amazing because you can be as picky as you want! The food wasn't anymore expensive as say...Friday's. The games were fun. The whole experience was just cool! I love technology and I really think touch screens are the future! I almost felt like I was in back to the future, expcept for the fact that a server had to bring us our food, and we still had to wait for it to be cooked. I also picked up 2 souveniers while we were at the mall.
After eating, I thought Jake would feel better, but he didn't. So he drove all the way up to Santa Monica to bring me to Jon's school. Jon had class from 6pm-10pm that night. I go to Jon's school about 8 and sat in his music class for two hours. The whole class just learns about different time periods and genere's and artisits in music. Jon and I were exhausted but we some how made it back to his loft in LA and we passed out around 11.
Tuesday, November 25
Today we woke up kinda early because Jon had homework to do. I had homework to do as well, but I was not feeling motivated to do it. Once Jon finished his homework, we were planning on seeing some sights before he had to meet up with a friend to work on a business project that are starting up. We never got to see some sights because Jon let his new roommate borrow his car. The roomie said he was only getting breakfast. Well....the roomie didn't come for 5 hours! Leaving us stranded at the loft! We explored the Brewery neighborhood and found this bar in the middle of the Brewery where all the locals go, Barbaras.
Once we got back from Barbaras, the car had returned and we went back to Santa Monica to go to Jon's business parnter's house. We stopped at Starbucks and Rite Aid on the way. Jon works at a Starbucks and has worked at many locations. He cannot live without his coffee. I on the other hand do not like coffee. I ended up getting a Pumpkin Spice Blended Creme Frappachino. At Rite Aid, I picked up some producats to do my nails and toe nails. They were looking pretty gross. We made it to his friend's house just in time. While they talked business, I did my nails and messed around on the internet. Then it was time to go. Jon wanted to do something after we left his friend's house, but we couldn't think of anything that would be open. We had wanted to go ice skating, so we found the outdoor rink in Santa Monica. Before heading over though, we figured we would be cold (yes, cold in LA!) so we stopped at Ross to get some scarves, gloves, hats, and sweaters to keep us warm. We go to the rink and got our skates. We had to wait for the zamboni to clear off the ice. This was going to be Jon and I's second time skating in our whole lives. My first time was when I was 10 and Jon's first time was like a year or two ago. We were both pretty sure we were going to look like fools. While we waited for the zamboni, I used the port-a-potty. It was the most amazing port-a-potty ever! There was lights, a fan, a sink, soap, paper towels, a mirror, a trash can, carpted floor and wall, and most all...the toilet FLUSHED! It was like luxury port-a-potty! So I go back to Jon and the zamboni is still clearing the ice. I put on my skates. Just as we are about to walk out onto the ice, it starts raining! In LA! Appearently it hasn't rained in months! But here we are at an out door ice skating rink a few blocks from the Pacific Ocean in Santa Monica and it starts raining! But we all skated anyways. It only lasted about 20 minutes. But it made for an interesting skating experience. I am proud to say that I didn't fall! I also didn't suck as bad as I thought I would. Remember, I had only skated once before this and that was 12 years ago!
After skating, Jon and I walked a block or two over to the Santa Monica promendae where there were stores and restauarants. Our skating wristbands got us a free coffee or hot chocolate from..here its goes...Starbucks. So we stopped at Starbucks to get two hot chocolates. I gave mine to Jon who ended up giving it to a funny/friendly homeless guy walking around the promenade. I was wearing flip flops and with the wet ground, my feet were wet and cold. We stopped into Sketchers so I could get some awesome gray boots (and some socks). I even got a discount for the holidays! Then we started looking for somewhere to eat. We ended up at some bar/restaurant with outdoor eatinig. Well as soon as we sat down, it started raining on us. Luckily there were umbrellas. I was not feeling good and I only got a soup. I was also getting really tired.
After eating we went back to the car, went back to the loft in LA. I went right to bed. Jon stayed up and did some homework.
Wednesday, November 26
Today started off quite early as well. We had to be out of the loft by 9am because Jon had a one hour class meeting to present a space layout by 11 in Santa Monica. Of course, we stopped at Starbucks. This time I got a vanilla bean frappachino and some pumpkin load. YUM! We also had to stop at Kinkos so Jon could print his space layouts. We go to his school early and we surfed the net in the library. Class was only an hour. It kept me interested because after the presentations, the teacher explained their next project: desiging a day care. I had to do that once. And children are my job and my education experience as well! After class, Jon and I decided we go get tattoos. We had been planning to do it Friday, but we spontaneously decided to do it Wednesday. We had to go back to Jon's school so that he could find the Chinese characters that he wanted and print them. We couldn't go straight to the tattoo shop because they didn't open until 2, and it was about 12ish. So we went on down to the Santa Monica Pier. Walked around, took some pics, and left. Then we stopped at Panda Express for some lunch. Then it was time to find Art and Soul Tattoo. We found them on google. They had lots of good reviews so we said why not. We both wanted simple small, not detailed tattoos, so we weren't worried about it. We foundt the place, walked in, signed the papers and found out they only take cash. So we had to walk down the street and get some cash from an ATM. Both our tats were $150. I went first.
Now I have two other tattoos. My first two, I don't remember crying, or being that nervous. For some reason, for this one, I got myself all worked up ahead of time, and then when the guy started, I started gritting my teeth, gripping the chair, and then the tears came. In reality I think my tat only took 10 minutes, but it felt like 20. Once it was over, it was Jon's turn. He was the exact opposite of me. He practically took a nap while getting his. Walking around after getting the tattoo was quite interesting. I got my tat on my left foot. I wore my new boots that day, unware that we were going to sponateously get our tats. Jon grabbed his flip flops out of his car for me to wear, but im tiny and his big. I looked like a freak wearing flip flops 5 sizes too big, and gimping around since my foot felt like it was on fire!
After the tattoos, we drove to Beverly Hills. Jon drove quickly through Rodeo Drive, just so I could see the rich life. We parked in a garage and waited outside in line for Sprinkles cupcakes for about 45 minutes. It was quite interesting waiting in line with my large flip flops and "flaming foot". It was also very chilly and I had left my jacket in the car. We got our cupcakes (which I still haven't eaten yet) and we left. Lucky us, the first hour of parking was free and we had JUST made it! All we did was wait in line for cupcakes. It took THAT long! They are gourment and they are pretty famous! I hear there is always a line out the door for them. It is usually longer. We were lucky.
After Beverly Hills we drove to Santa Monica to go to Jon's apt the he is moving out of. He loaded up some stuff in his car, stopped at subway, and headed to the loft. I went right to sleep around 9:30ish. Jon stayed up.
Thursday, November 27
That's today. That takes me to right now. We have Thanksgiving plans. But I want to talk about anything until it happens. I still haven't eaten my cupcakes. I also still haven't taken the seran wrap off my tattoo on my foot. I need to do that so I can clean it and put some A & D ointment on it. I haven't really even gotten to see my tattoo. I kept my eyes closed the whole time and then I took a short glance just as he wrapped it.
Did I mention how freaking chilly this loft is? Because it's all industrial, it would be way to expensive to heat it. The place is made entirely out bricks, there is no insulation. So even though it's LA in the fall, its still freezing in here!
Well I'm done for now. Will update the rest of my trip later!
So I have always been on the fast track plan. I graduated high school in 3.5 years. I graduated with my Bachelor's in 3 years (and a year earlier than people my age). I intended to finish my Master's in 5 semesters (a year and a half). I found out yesterday that may not happen. All because of this stinking economy! Let me explain:
I am getting my Master's in Early Childhood Education. My program does not include a thesis at the end like most Graduate programs do. Instead, once we finish all our course requirements we have to take our Comps (Comprehensive Exams). When we are ready to take our Comps, we are given four questions, we are to choose two and then write a 20 page research paper for the two questions. We have 6 weeks to write the two 20 page papers. Then the papers are submitted to three University professors. The papers are the determining factor as to whether we actually graduate and receive our degree. So if we fail the papers, we have to take them again. I am unsure how many times you can take the Comps. I am sure there is a limit.
My plan all along has been that I will finish all my required course work in May of 2009, and that I will take my Comps in the summer of 2009, in hopes of graduating and receiving my degree in August of 2009. Well that may not happen now.
So the issue now is that the state is cutting budgets at the University level, and that means less professors working. One of my professors told me that it looks like there will be no professors working next summer, and if there are no professors working, then no one can read and grade my Comps if I do them in the summer. It is looking like I will have to wait to take my Comps in fall of 2009 and then (hopefully) graduate in Decemeber of 2009.
What I am freaking out about is that I have been 3 classes each semester, as a brand new first year teacher! It has been extremely stressful, but I just keep telling myself "I will finish in August. I will finish in August!"" I really do not want to have to be taking these major major papers, probably the most important papers of my life, while I am teaching again next fall. As of right now, I do not like the teaching position I am currently in, and will be looking for another teaching position at another school in the area. Which means I will be starting over yet again next fall. I was also planning to possibly move out of Florida before school started next August. I was going to start looking out of state for a new home and a new teaching job. Well, right now my degree is what is keeping me here.
So needless to say, the darn economy and the darn budget cuts are causing me to major stress and frustration. I am really not sure I want to stay living in Florida. Florida politicians are idiots when it comes to budgeting money and now I am paying the price and it really stinks!
*sigh*
So I was super carefree and all "yes" when a guy asked me on a date last Friday night. We talked/chatted all week. But then today he cancelled on me (the day of our plans) because he accidently planned our day on a day he already had plans. I said whatever and that I wasn't impressed. I said he had two strikes already for not making a good impression (he didn't remember my name 5 minutes after meeting me). He said he doesn't play games and he doesn't need this, it was nice meeting me, good bye.
I know where I was wrong, but I also know where I was right. I was not attracted to this guy from the beginning but I figured I would give him a chance (yes and carefree). I was still too stubborn to let him get away from cancelling on me last minute. It hurts me everytime someone makes plans with me and than cancels. I know I could have handled it better, but I needed him to know that it is not impressive to do that. Especially when he was the one that asked me out and told me where and when our date would be. I feel like a bitch, but I also feel like the guy didn't live up to how a man should treat a woman, especialy when trying to woo her.
I will have to get over it, but right now I am more worried about him going around telling people I am a bitch when I know I am not one. We didn't know each other long enough for him to take the time to listen to me. We both kind of assumed things about each other. Clearly we never would have worked. I guess I am probably also angry that I didn't get the last word in, so I guess that is something I am working on. Even though it sucks to not have the last word. Oh well.
You live. You learn. You die.
So even though I have made it my New Year's resolution for the last few years, I am yet again having to remind myself to be more carefree, laidback, and chill about things. I worry too much, I think about the negative too much, I come up with excuses to avoid things I fear too much. I think it is time for me to step out further into this strange world. I am going to take advice from (of all things) a movie trailer I keep seeing on TV for Jim Carrey's newest movie: Yes Man. It's about a guy that always backs out of doing things, always says no to people. Until he is given advice to say yes to EVERYTHING. even strangers. As my counselor reminded me last week, you never know when you could meet someone new or experience something new and wonderful.
So I am going to try to be more chill about things and start saying yes to things. I think those two things will help me really get to experience all that life has to offer.
Easier said then done my friend....
So...heres the clip to that movie though..
While I have many vents about online dating, I would like to share just one of them right now. As more come along, I might add them.
Right now the biggest thing that irks me about online dating is when a guy (other ladies may do it too, I wouldn't know) connects to me by email or message through the dating site with a very obvious generic email. It is obvious that it is generic because it doesn't say my name, it doesn't ask questions, it sounds scripted (and like it is copied and pasted into many emails), and most importatnly it doesn't ever refer to MY profile! When I receive an obvious generic email I am tempted to tell the guy off. He needs to learn that sending out the same email to every girl he is interested in is not going to get him anywhere. Online dating tip numero uno: make the first email/message personal!
It really just baffles me how clueless guys really are.
Oh and I guess I also hate when profiles don't have a picture, are only partially filled out, are ridiculous (his favorite thing: being with you of course....PUH-LEASE!), are full of one liners/pick up lines.
Serious people that use online dating sites to look for REAL relationships take the time to fill out their profiles with appropriate information, choose quality pictures of themselves, and also take the time to send personal messages/emails, NOT GENERIC ONES that are used over and over again.
Okay. That's my vent for today.
So now that I am all caught up on The Office, I have moved onto Weeds. This show is hilarious! I am watching it right now and one quote I just heard speaks the whole truth:
Andy: "What are they teaching you in school?"
Shane: "How to pass a weekly standardized test so the school can get more funding."
And that my fellow Americans is what our education system is all about!
Oh and speaking of weed. I am not a big fan of smoking weed myself, I really don't like the taste. I feel the same way about alcohol. But I am beginning to agree with the legalize marijuana folks: Alcohol makes people do dumb things and weed makes people do dumb things. How come one can be legal and the other can't? How come one can be sold publicly in order to benefit the economy, but the other can't? I am sure if marijuana was legal, our economy would get a great big boost. And tax payers wouldn't have to spend so much for having pot sellers take up space in jails. You know jail, the place for murders, convicts, and pedophiles?
People are going to smoke weed and teenagers are going to have sex. My advice: legalize pot, help the economy. Teach sex education because teenagers have a right to be exposed to all information. No more of this "abstinence only" crap. (I want to add that I saw Lewis Black live the other night. Even before seeing him I was always an advocate for comprehensive sex education, he just sparked me to write about it today that's all.)
I am learning at this young age that our society has major issues with social order and social change. Maybe when the old conservatives die off, our society can welcome some much needed change. Who gives a care if gay people want to marry? Who gives a care if dads choose to stay at home while mothers bring in the bacon? Who cares if a women decides she cannot have a baby at that time in her life? If it doesn't affect your well being and your life style, why do you care so much? Get off your high horse and let people live the life they want.
"pursuit of happiness" come on!
What word or phrase drives you absolutely nuts?
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Growing up, I never liked when my parent's would say "because I told you so". That was never good enough for me. As an early childhood educator now, I work extra hard to give real reasons for why children should do things. When I hopefully become a parent some day, I hope to never use that statement when enforcing a rule or consequence for my children. As a child, I wanted a real reason, and I believe that most all children want a real understandable and rational reason for why parents or adults want them to do things. There is are always ways to explain things to children so that they will understand. "Because I said so" just never cut it for me, and it probably never will.
