QotD: It's Too Late to Apologize
Has anyone ever done something so horrible to you that "I'm sorry" couldn't fix it?
Yes. Everything my father has ever done to make my life a living hell, that is unforgivable and no amount of I'm Sorry will fix it. I don't want to get into it, but for him to call me an out of control teenager for 6 years when I clearly wasn't and then to aplogozie through EMAIL 2 years after the fact the day after my mother leaves him, no that is not an apology I accpet. I still don't know if I should thank my dad for being an ass to me my whole life, because if not for his mistreatment and lack of affection I would not have wanted to move out and move to Florida.
Also no amount of I'm Sorry from him will ever forgive when he came into my room with a trash bag and made me throw away MY things just because they related to Hawaii (I had an obession with moving to Hawaii and had bought all kinds of Hawaii memorable to remind me of my dream). Things I bought with MY money. He made me throw them all away and watch the trash bag get smashed with all the trash from my neighborhood in the garbage truck outside my house.
There is more to the things my father has done to me. I have learned now that he emotionally abused my mom, my brother, and I. He needs to live with what he has done. People that are lonely are lonely because they push people away. And thats what he did. He never appreciated me as a human being let alone a daughter. He was never a father figure to me.
I now know the kind of man I NEVER want to marry because of him. I am happier here in Florida without him around.
So yeah, it is too late for apologies.
Someone once told me that it is never too late for apologies though. That people end up happier when they can forgive. We dont have to forget what people have done to us, but sometimes it might be best to just let things go. Right now I do not thing I am ready to let the thing my father has done to me go. I am still emotionally hurt by the thing he has done and said to me throughout my life. So far nothing he has done has proved to me that he acknowledges what he did. He he an emotionless, cold hearted man.
Okay enough dwelling on the past.